DONE WAITING FOR THE OMENS!
INSPIRATION, is something I believe everyone needs from time to time, even when they say they don’t. But what baffles me is how a single incident, accident or even a book for that matter can inspire people so much that their whole life changes. Doesn’t the inspiration come with an expiry date? Or is it only me that has the urge to find a new inspiration almost every month! Like when I saw a girl trying to save her mother who for some god forbidden reason decided to end her life, I felt that maybe that is the moment I change the way I lead my life and try making it more meaningful and maybe live it to the fullest but eventually that spark faded away without me even noticing it. I thought maybe that was not it, that there was something else or someone else that would inspire me. Maybe I am way too thick to see the signs I thought or just plain stupid! I have been depressed at the thought of being so shallow because I have always thought that something EXTRAORDINARY would happen to make me realize that it’s time for me to change, to turn my life upside down.
Busy waiting for some external sign to change, it never crossed my mind that I can only change if and when I decide to change. How many ever inspirational speeches or books or incidents I come across mean nothing if I choose to ignore them. For example, people say they are inspired by a person and want to be like them I find nothing fascinating in living my life in a way someone else did, not very original.
And if you think writing this is a way to say that I have found that inspiration, that fire and am ready to rule the world, sorry to disappoint but this ain’t no fairy tale. I just realized, maybe I’ll find that inspiration or maybe I won’t, but delaying my oh so needed personality development would not be relying on that! (not that I need any, but still…)